Monday

Haven't written in awhile - my computer power cord is broken and I got a new one sent to Barryville so I have to wait to use it. For some reason I can't make updates on my phone, the browser won't support it? I dunno. Good thing I have a crappy outdated laptop, the power cords are like 99 cents on amazon lol. Anyhoooo. Well I've had a few slip ups - last night and the night before I had vegan pizza, rice, cooked veggies, toast with earth balance, PB&J sandwich... sigh. I've been having some struggles to say the least. I'm not trying to beat myself up or really dwell on it too much, but it's hard not to. I'm having a lot of trouble just eating fruit all day. The solution to that, is "you're not eating enough calories, you're not 'carbed up' enough"... Well I'm saying if I have to drink one more 15 banana smoothie, I might lose it. I'm not sure what's really going on. I really do believe in this diet and lifestyle, but at the same time, sometimes I don't.
Maybe I should re-read some of my original posts as to why I'm doing it, and why I believe in this, because I've kind of forgotten why at this point. I did feel generally pretty good, for the most part. My digestion is SHIT, but I'm not blaming the fruits and veggies necessarily - especially considering what I ate in the last 48 hours. But I've had constant gas, bloating and limited bowel movements since I began this journey. Again, I'm not blaming the fruit. I think it's been symptoms of detox, after reading others' experiences - many people have written about digestion issues and constipation. But honestly it's really frustrating. I know I haven't even made it two weeks so I should just be patient - but I'm a pretty impatient person in general, so that's been challenging.
Not to mention - wondering how the hell I'll manage this diet in NYC where everything costs an arm and a leg.. I have to keep that saying into my mind - where there's a will there's a way.. Even if I'm just eating normal cooked food it would still be pretty expensive probably - and I would probably save a ton of money that I'd spend at restaurants or getting takeout, etc.. I have to consider that side of things. Anyway, I definitely have some challenges ahead of me - and I may have cooked food here and there. If I do, I will try to keep it as simple as I can - steamed rice, potatoes, veggies.

Today's another day and I will keep that in mind - as I drink my OJ.
I may blend the rest of my OJ with some romaine lettuce to get my greens in.